I grew up Baptist. For most of my life I can remember not liking religion. I had lots of questions as I child, and they were never answered in Church. This feeling only grew as I did. The more I understood history, and the role of religion, the more I began to see it as an artificial construct of the human psyche responsible for rationalizing horrors I could hardly imagine, such as the Crusades, and the Inquisition. I saw it as a way to avoid thought and reason, as evidenced by the persecution of scientists in the name of religion throughout history.
I also became aware that Jesus, did not seem to fit with any of the rest of the bible, or any organized religion as best I could understand them. What he said, I warmed to. What he did, amazed me. Man, or son of God, he was no doubt great and inspirational.
This only served to further my distaste for religion. To so distort such a great man's life and words into something that became almost unrecognizable, abhorred me.
I had become, without realizing it, or even knowing the term, a secular humanist.
At the age of 35, I was still a child. I was the house cat that never grew up. The last of generation X, and peter pan. On 9/11, I became an adult.
I was no longer willing to sit back and be passive. I was no longer willing to hold my tongue about what I understood, simply because it was unpopular and I was in a minority. Once again, horror had been committed in the name of God, and I felt: It. Had. To. Stop.
Then, my leader, my country, refused to even acknowledge the issue. Refused, in the face of such horror, to question their beliefs even for a moment. I knew, in that moment, that George Bush did not represent me on any level. I knew my country, was headed down a path I found to be historically terrifying. I knew, for the first time in my life, I had to vote. I was already voting out George Bush on that day, and it would be three years before I knew who I was voting for.
That is my story. Love it, hate it, argue it, but it is mine. And to me, it is very personal and powerful.
Edited by Hambil, 12 August 2004 - 01:58 PM.